worth a look.

unhappy?, stressed?, just got some time on your hands check out this article. Its a little long but worth the read and theres pictures :)

http://www.cracked.com/article_15231_7-reasons-21st-century-making-you-miserable.html

Strength.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

The next adventure.

Well its been a while.
But for anyone who dose not know and still reads this just thought id put up here and let people know what im up to. Instead of going straight from my old job and moving into a carreer which was my original plan through some peoples advice and through some good friends help it looks like I have a car and am taking an adventure. Too where im not exactly sure its a trip that will see me go through the rockies and probably do some camping there will lead me to friends houses in edmonton and prairie. and then after that "i dont really know". Im not normally a guy to say those words but on this trip i really dont know. Im not sure if i will run into people i know meet new people or just solo it around all i do know is that i have a good chunk of money saved and 3 months to drive, see, explore and help some people along the way. well i am gone i will have my cell and ill be stopping every few days to check my email so if people want to meet anywheres a long the way, need a lift, or just want to hear how its going ill communicate throught that. This blog is all but dead and this is probably the last entry as i dont really like blogging as a media, way to impersonal and i cant say what i really think because i dont know who will be reading it. Emails are much better.

Reid- To The Adventure.

"SATURDAY NIGHTS ALRIGHT"

If anyone ever reads this anymore
BOOK SATURDAY MAY 26th off and come watch John Ross and I box! 5$ too get you in the door to cover our costs for renting the place and come watch the fun... If there is anyone out there who thinks they could step in the ring with mike Mcmillian let us know too maybe the night will become a double feature....
Stay tuned more details to follow about time and place but it will be the night of May 26th.

Reid- To The Adventure.

Song timeout.

go here and listen to the song and read the lyrics.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=15602513

As I'm staring through this fire,
its to late to make you mine,
so far from where we started so far from what we wanted
and as both our worlds fall down,
we get lost and we get found
so far from where we started so far from what we wanted.

Chorus
I’ve made mistakes that I cant erase, I’ve made mistakes
If I had the money honey would you love me love me love me
if I wasn’t just somebody like me (like me)
If I had the money honey would you love me love me love me
if I wasn’t just somebody like me (like me)
I’ve made mistakes that I can’t erase, I’ve made mistakes

Though I'm sure to see the signs,
that we are falling back in time,
so far from where we started so far from what we wanted.
and I'm trying to right this wrong,
so I need you to be strong,
so far from where we started so far from what we wanted

Chorus

Yah Yah Yo Yah Yah Yo
I know you know, so let it go
Yah Yah Yo Yah Yah Yo
I Know you know.

Chorus

Yah Yah Yo Yah Yah Yo
I know you know
Yah Yah Yo Yah Yah Yo
I Know you know.

Reid- To The Adventure.

change

If you're in a bad situation, don't worry it'll change. If you're in a good situation, don't worry it'll change. ~John A. Simone, Sr.

Time, which changes people, does not alter the image we have retained of them. ~Marcel Proust

People don't change. Only their costumes do. ~Gene Moore

The only man I know who behaves sensibly is my tailor; he takes my measurements anew each time he sees me. The rest go on with their old measurements and expect me to fit them. ~George Bernard Shaw

God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me. ~Author Unknown

Jason and a rant

So I have an "aquintance/friend" at school who is well in some ways my complete opposite. His name is Jason and we sit together and have spent a fair amount of time together lately. First because of a psychology project we did together and secondly because well i like his very dry very negative sense of humor and he well likes making fun of me. More speciffically he likes to make fun of my morals and my decisions in life. Because of the nature of our psych project and because i seem to get along with him i have told him a lot about my life over the past couple of years about my family, about my friends, about my failed relationships and about my adventures. He always has some negative witty remark about how i am in these situations.

For example he also likes quotes but picks well different quotes then i do. One of his favourites that he reminds me of is "nice guys finish last" (then he usually points at me and says "thats you laaaaaasssstttttt.") which always makes me laugh. "those are my ethics if you dont like them i have another set." "alls fair in love and war. and lifes a war" things like that.

So anyways he takes a great deal of pleasure in telling me how i seem to have this system of rules that i run my life bye. My morals and ethics and well as i often say "doing the right thing." He always laughs at me when i say that he says dose doing the right thing make you happy? dose it get you what you want? has following the rules granted you the things you want? He is especially intrusive in dating conversations when he learns my past dating failures and how at times i have gone out of my way to do whatever i could in these relationships he just laughs and says "Miller you tool" (he calls me by my last name alot) He says things like you will never suceede without being a jerk... like your an opinionated strong willed person but your not a jerk and you do way to much for people who wont do anything for you (usually said with some sort of enficies on either money or "favors")

Its odd normally i just right him off and laugh at his jokes and hit him back with the odd sly remark about his dastardly deeds but the last couple of weeks more of his words have been getting through the shield i normally have around me. Some of the things he says start to make more sence and start to make me think about them when before i would just wright them off. I mean back in the day in like grade 3-7 before i was a christian really i had mad skills in manipulation, lying, and well getting what i wanted. And really I was just a younger Jason and i think he knows this. He has even said "comeon miller you could have what you want if you would just step up and use all the skills "your" God gave you" he defines things like manipulation as being very skillful and highly important skills.

Its odd because i have often said its not what you do its the why you do it that matters and he dosnt seem to care about the what or the why just simply if it makes him happy. "Miller if given the choice between cheating on my test and passing this lame course and not cheating on my test and haveing to come back here one more year only an idiot would pick the second one" or "miller if a cop gives you a speeding ticket always dispute it most the time they cant even make it to the court and then you dont have to pay... do you like paying???" "miller do what you want to do in your evenings and if the gf wants you to do something tell her too bad if she wants to do something tell her to do what you are doing."

its always that last one that gets my attention the most i mean i have spent most of my dating life doing what i can for the other (not to say i havent been a jerk at times in some of those relationships) but really going out of my way to make the other person happy hopeing that it would be a two way street. However the more i look at my peer group at college guys and girls the more i see that it "seems" that for some morbid reason the "selfish jerks" have more luck with dating relationships then the i want to make you happy people. This makes no sence to me but seems to have real world proof behind it.

Its odd to me to because in the past week i have been darker then usual in my sence of humor i have always been able to get my sence of humor in the gutter and am not afraid of the odd dirty joke but its actually been darker. and just last friday in class after jason made a joke i countered it with a particularly dark joke and his response really surprised me. in his best emporror palpatine voice (yes hes in to starwars though he wont admit it because hes afraid it will lower his coolness) he said "ahh my young apprentice..... (btw hes younger then me) but it made me think am i going somewhere i dont want to go? am i changeing this person that i am at the core or am i just simply "playing a roll" and even so is that a good thing? I dont know im a little confussed. Ive always known who i am and have always liked who i am but lately im starting to see that i could be other things and i have to admit some of the "stuff" and the way people wold look at me might be pretty cool some of the time......

Oh and lastly because i know you will read this jason to make fun of my blog and how "girly" it is to openly share your "feelings" try leaving a comment and share your wit with my regular group of readers.

Reid- To The Adventure.